I learned to fill with prayers
The sterile silence I dread
Purging and casting spells
Begging till my knees bled
Everytime I hold my breath
His moans summons demons
Legions of lust and regret
From the back of my mind
To the front of my wide-eyed gaze
You're there as a mirage
In every plea and every praise
The closing that didn't bring closure
Truce is a farce, love is dissatisfied
They won't kill me with their lies
But please let all this be over
I can't keep killing you
No matter how much I want to
Say your peace, let it go in the wind
With a whole eternity to live or waste
I'll burn your body, I'll say your name
I'll light up candles to your grace
To contemplate where love cast shadows
And contempt drains the strength
The madness chasing us down
to the deep end
Living through little white lies
A spirit billows in pale memories
Playing back psalms and songs
To cast away the reverie
In dirty secrets and treacheries
With the faith of the unfaithful
Still he moans ill and unholy
The hunger of the fires
Consuming the whole limbo down
To show, illuminate and purify
Then leaving ashes in my mouth
In the forever of his stillness
He doesn't need to say it anymore
I'll always remember the song
And he won't forget a single note
Then I had to kill you
Although I didn't have to
