Cinzas e Sombras

A benção do erro

É a resolução e o recomeço

A míriade de novos finais

Culpe quem sonhou demais

Quem só queria viver

Matar e morrer

De lua à lua, sol à sol

Viveu mil vidas

E terminou como

tudo termina

A face de Deus

queimada na retina

O arfar com sacrifício

Por um sentido na vida

De reis, loucos e santos

Rainhas, demônios e anjos

Somos cinzas e sombras

O alívio do engano

É o divino e o humano

A miragem da perfeição

Culpe a crença e a ilusão

O que poderia ter sido

Mas nunca foi permitido

De céu à céu, déu em déu

Do inferno ao paraíso

E foi só outro joguete

Na mão do destino

Não há nada além do agora

A fragilidade do que se esgota

Não há nada além daqui

Não há nada além de mim

Não há nada além do fim

Dark Water

Forced to see the future
Into the mirror that never breaks

The seduction and destruction

Joined in spirit of blind faith 

The abyss looking back

at the rich, the wise and the poor

From avoidance to acceptance

Watching time killing us slow

I'm silent as the waves whisper

Fate is not yours to lose

It's not yours to fool

It drove better men mad

Get what you want

lose what you had

I see my reflection 

in worlds light years way

I hear my screams in the void

The echo knows no names

I fight the endless night

And high tides in vain

A shadow in the shade

Adrift in the dark water

Forced to see the unknown

With hazy stubborn eyes

Caught between need and greed

The disdain and delight

In the endlessness of ends

Anything can resemble to love

From despondence to consequence

Wherever you go, fate will follow

The Deep End

I learned to fill with prayers

The sterile silence I dread

Purging and casting spells 

Begging till my knees bled

Everytime I hold my breath

His moans summons demons

Legions of lust and regret

From the back of my mind

To the front of my wide-eyed gaze

You're there as a mirage

In every plea and every praise

The closing that didn't bring closure

Truce is a farce, love is dissatisfied

They won't kill me with their lies

But please let all this be over 

I can't keep killing you

No matter how much I want to

Say your peace, let it go in the wind

With a whole eternity to live or waste

I'll burn your body, I'll say your name

I'll light up candles to your grace

To contemplate where love cast shadows

And contempt drains the strength

The madness chasing us down

to the deep end

Living through little white lies 

A spirit billows in pale memories

Playing back psalms and songs

To cast away the reverie

In dirty secrets and treacheries

With the faith of the unfaithful

Still he moans ill and unholy

The hunger of the fires

Consuming the whole limbo down

To show, illuminate and purify

Then leaving ashes in my mouth

In the forever of his stillness

He doesn't need to say it anymore

I'll always remember the song

And he won't forget a single note

Then I had to kill you

Although I didn't have to

Slowest Burn

Laid at your cruel mercy

Resting in my glory, pretty and whole

In the afterglow of awe and euphoria

The wait was thankless and long

Breath undone, my prayers in silence

The violence of wanting and despair

The demons in my mind

All the shadows coming from within

Vibrating to the touch of the light

The sins in our apocryphals

We fall from the grace we forge

And we conquer havens in the sky

Promise me death and life

Through hell and through time

The misery and delight of who we are

I'll witness you with my love

I'll bathe you in my own blood

To overcome and dance in the dark 

Through crazy twists and turns

The hottest flame and slowest burn

The one who came from afar

Brokenhearted with ashes in his hand

Fate is your ally and your alibi

You dared me calling it by it's name

Claiming rituals and confessions

And concessions for it to come alive

This lonely elation wraps me in its ruin

Consumed in the purest of the wantings

And in it's little deaths it's satisfied

In your arms I’m neither saint nor sinner

I'm a spirit craving for transcendence

And flesh burning in candlelight

Shapeshifter

Standing together on the moon

I knew when you wanted my soul

It's known your desire casts spells

Create lives and rises tides

You carved your whisper on my skin

A secret hymn the saints can’t sing

About fallen prophets, gods and kings

In the dead of night you heard my call

Feisted on my flesh, rejoiced in my fall

And there was nothing I wanted at all

Dancing at your castle of bones

I hear the echoes of the vows I made

The tirades and crusades for justice

Erotic tales in the language of angels

You've taught me magic and demise

Fed me the bread and poured me wine

To conquer me, subjugate and colonize

Lured into the oblivion of who I am

With ashes and blood in my hands

Singing lullabies written in the sand

I see you through smoke and fire

As the fortune-teller and the liar

The man, sheep, bull and lion

Your predictions and illusions

Your schemes and desilusions

I see the shadow and the flame

The promise and its own bane

And I call you by your name

Shapeshifter

Roaming around the desert

Where I was deserted of innocence

My penitence was loving too much

Until it became punishment

You come to me like death itself

Wanting to know me like yourself

Deceiving through glory and wealth

Dare my love to survive your curse

Change my oath, change my words

Throw me to the fire and let me burn

You'll never make me feel less

You'll never make me love you more

When I came back from the dead

I said I wouldn't die anymore

Liquid Sky

Tell me about how every breath is a prayer

Turn my blood into water, poison into wine

Reveal the mystery and the nightmare

Of every miracle that you deny 

and every coup that you strike 

I hear your silence screaming

In thunderous tantrums of the greedy

In high treason crimes and war cries

In conspiracies and genocides

Through those speaking in your name

They ask for love and for rain

As they claim the tides will rise

And the world will burn in flames

Your vow, written in crooked lines

Shadowed by what they proclaim

Profess the end in water and fire

They ask for love and for pain

Cause it's all the same in your

liquid sky

O que vocês disseram no escuro 

será ouvido à luz do dia; 

o que sussurraram nos ouvidos dentro de casa

será proclamado dos telhados.

Tell me about how every promise is a hymn

Cast all your stones and your blind spell 

You've made the sinner and the sin

The lies the righteous always tell

The betrayal fascists always yell

You give me chance and choice

Through neglect and white noise

Through emptiness and disbelief

Through their coups of amnesty

As they're allowed to use your name

Não há nada oculto que não venha a ser revelado

e nada escondido que não venha a ser trazido à luz.

Equinox

Sacrifice me at the altar of the damned, baby

I've made a promise I might not keep

At the brink of no longer knowing who I am

The truth is maybe I just never did

I found a thrift shop in a street corner of hell

And they begged me to sell my soul

The best place for thieves to save themselves

The worst place for angels to lose control

Deceive me at the feet of the gods, baby

I'm all yours to love, hate, destroy and kill

Stop the time before the equinox

And let's dance to the sound of our thrills

Consume me until there's nothing more, baby

Pull me apart and put me back together

Picked like a camellia or a white bloomed rose

That grows in any shithole of liquid heaven

I kneeled to pray in a church in the wind

A castle on the hill, a room in the dark

As if I'm the one who invented sin

As they put me together to pull me apart

Forget me until you can't remember why, baby

Let me undo the story if it'll be last thing I'll do

Kissed goodbye under the hottest neon lights

To hear "sorry, I was never in love with you"

When devil came my way, I didn't know what to say

Take my life, roll my dice, my heart is yours

He took my hand, took a selfie and faded away

The day I knew my soul wasn't mine anymore

House of Mirrors

Look at my face and scars
Tear my whole world apart

In curses and fever dreams

Chase the twisted ways of my veins

The highest highs and deepest pains

How could I be who I used to be?

Cause I'm the rage and the revenge

I'm the fury and the insurgence

I don't forgive, I don't forget

You're the reverie and a faded memory

The choice and the hopeless misery

You no longer can say you know me

Though forever I'll be trapped

in your house of mirrors

Hear the echo of the silence

Resonating solitude and consequence

And the sentence of all your days

Haunting my fears and my lovers

Still blaming me for not recovering

But not letting me get away

Don't steal words from my mouth

Don't rip my heart off my chest

Don't force me to confess

Your sins out loud

I don't forgive, I don't forget

In my greatest moment of doubt

In my prayers to understand death

Endings and blessings

I don't forgive, I don't forget

Radioactive

There was a time when truth and lies
were unknown for desperate eyes

And your hate speech and lullabies

were the perfect twisted disguise 

This useless silent war you impel

The tricks and tales the traitors tell

Judging judges as if they're god himself

Hurt a nation and you'll hurt yourself

It doesn't take much to take you down

And defeat you in your revenge fantasy

The tyrants and torturers you bow down to

Will go down with their blind vanity

Watch the world you once knew fade away

As you pay the price for your betrayal

Lost case, unfulfilled prophecy

Fallen idol, radioactive

Tomorrow brings the justice of the dead

And the aftermath of your lost bets

Stretching the rope 'til where it can get

Facing the world with lies and idle threats

Greed abhors a vacuum, chaos is a ladder

From where your glass bones will shatter

Searching for love, descending to madness

The mirage of praise you're eternally after

Denied in life and death, by allies and foes

No god and no devil to buy your soul

Coup from coup, but no amnesty in hell

In limbo, in this land or in your cell

Nine Lives

As you accept destiny with it's tragedy and farce

The irredeemable evil which plays its part

Has kept me in its mercy for just so long

Once you're the one being kept and built

Loved, snitched, betrayed and killed

What else could you possibly die for?

Life curses the bravery of wanting too much

Watching blind faith turning into pure yearn

I think I've lost a few parts of my soul

In a world they deceive you with the truth

And gut you as sacrifice for the greater good

What else could you possibly die for?

In the thunderous echo of memory

I know you'll remember me

From flesh to flesh, ash to ash

Face to face, eye for an eye

My heart bears the weight of nine lives

Almost loved, almost chosen

Almost risen, but never dead

As you see too many suns setting on you

The rapture of nothing else left to do

Has witnessed me with calm affection

Fate always repeating the same ghostly dance

And the way how it takes you by the hand

To bring demise, then resurrection

I've lost too much time and too many lives

Searching for lovers in torturers

I don't know who to blame anymore

Endless negotiations, trials and tribulations

Until I no longer recognize myself

Though I can't be someone else

Avalanche

In a dream, I hear you whispering
A drift, a secret thrill that speaks
But the claim of devils and angels just
sounds the same to me

I see years ahead but I'm scared to blink

And dusks and dawns won't mean a thing

And we get lost in a primal greed
a storm of want that buries skin and sin

Guide me to you, scream for me

With the voice of thousand ghosts

And the soul of million years old

You stand there as my mirage

Embodying the prophecy

The desilusion and the belief

Through the avalanche

In an echo far off, I hear you damning

The hunger outweighing the guilt

And the relief seeing reason being

engulfed by touch and feels

The silence of god leaving us to decide

To break down or break free in the paradise

Love coaxed us into just to see our

souls being left to die

When our promises echo in the sky

And we hear them thundering down

Soft wishes that settle gently in the mind

And things we only know now

In a reverie, you wake from a nightmare

Of world endings and damnations

To kiss the devil you came to know

So we won't feel this pain anymore

Scorpio

I found omens when I was seeking them

In your eyes of despondency and greed

Dying in my triumph, no mercy or pain

And fever burns me thousand kisses deep

I feel my soul bifurcating as

wanting cruely betrays the need

It makes it's way to the bone

With it's promise and defeat

You were hungry, you were blind

You said a prayer and sunk your teeth

I offered my good faith in sacrifice

It brought you down to your knees

I am the balm and the wound

Your perdition and your doom

The hottest devil you've ever

sold your dark soul to

You're the malady and the remedy

My venom and the insanity

A broken hallelujah to the skies

in my greatest time of need

Surrendered, we close our eyes

to see where scorpios goes to die

I look at you as you contorts

With the bitter taste of justice done

The thirst your wine won't quench

And your wanting turning into stone

I kiss your lips and your mind wonders

How can salvation kill you like this

But your hollowed heart always knew 

The cure was worst than the disease

We surrendered to a hopeless pain

To see love as the deadliest drug

We're cristalized and numb 

to the danger of surviving

Tell me about the end of the world

The cold wars we wage on us

To make it through the pretty

the ugly, the enticing

They say you'll kill me

If I don't kill you first

But how can I rescue you

If I am much worse?

Venus

I'm not brave enough to say

I stand here redeemed and justified

Like an impious to your grace

Steadly looking into your eyes

I was the one to defy

The purest heavens and the

highest skies, with their

gods and saints in disguise

I was bound to fall and sin

I'm not asking for mercy

I don't deserve anything

They say I'm caught in the middle 

Of a prophecy of peace and evil

That I've woke up in a delirium

With fake promises and riddles

But when he took both my hands

I took my demons out to dance

Spinning fiercely in blind faith

I lay in your altar, I succumb to my pain

Venus, my madness witnesses my love

And I surrendered so below as above 

If I'm crazy I thought I wouldn't know

Venus, I've renounced the dream

And the hope that have never been

Just to irredeemably fall for him

Venus, here I bare body and soul

There's nothing more I owe

Let me die in my glory once more

I was young when I first knew

all the misery and decay

of the truth and all it's moments

when it cheats it's virtue

And how it never set me free

I never expected it to

Once it serves the fantasy

They say I've parted with reason

In my vows and self treasons

That I got lost among the legion

Running from all of my illusions

But when he swore his death to me

I felt my soul burning to a crisp

Challenging me to resist

But fate was made as we kissed

So Venus tell me

How many angels will be left for dead

How many gods we're going to upset

Until we'll be something real

How many saints will be sacrificed

How many prophets will be decried

Until we'll be something new

I'll be lost until you reveal 

your face in a lucid dream

Though we don't deserve anything

Walking In The Sun

I don't look back

In the eye of my vices or reveries

My ghosts and my fantasies

They were all left to die

I opened my sore eyes

I opened them myself

To see there was nothing

brighter than the truth

Unrepentant as it is

As I set myself free

And my spirit is set loose

I seek no absolution

I seek no defense

I'll never be justified

I want to feel the wind

I want to start again

I'm meant to see the light

I don't have to hide 

I don't have to lie

I don't have to run 

I just want to be the one

who's walking in the sun

I don't trade

with deceivers and foes  

For my blood and my bones

No matter how hard they try

I won't take love as a bribe

You could never afford it

And we'll both starve

The truth which won't bend

For it is still unrepentant

I won't go back in the dark

Smokescreen

We both lost in life

And fell in love in a time

Of distraction, greed

and recreational lies

Facades and veiled smut

You became a snob

I became a slut

Both seeking something

to sink our teeth in

Bounded by fetishes

of what the truth can't be

Saying what they want to hear

Blaming the silence 

for being ruthlessly loud

So all you do is dance around

While they don't care 

And they don't care at all

In a smokescreen

Is it you or a reflection

A disguise or a projection

In a smokescreen

Can you say in a blur

was she me was I her

In a smokescreen

We're both lost in a maze

And my eyes still ache

from the tear gas and climax

and relentless heartbreak

The naked leads the blind

Liars gloats and toasts

As the stoic writhes

Sat on a stepping stone

with the word sex etched on

They can't hear you screaming

From your echo chamber

Through moans and shambles

Dodging the shards

Of beauty and disbelief

They all steal and cheat

And lie to your face

Yet you keep blaming me

You can't numb everyone

with orgasms and promises

We're all angels and demons

Saints, mortals and heros

no longer playing by the rules

So if I knew that all it took 

was cheating, stealing 

deceiving and lying to you

You just had to tell me to

Let them cover their eyes

Let them feign their grace

Let them play the fool

Let them play the game

Forget Me

You purge and exorcize

And purify the darkest halls

You abuse your faith 

holding on to anything at all

And beg til your knees bleed

At night he calls my name

So often, so much, so loud

You too started calling for me

In every broken mirror

You see me looking back at you

Your lips, hips and chest

The illusion I believed too

The freedom that won't set you free

Time is long, truth is elastic

They all are so jealous and cruel

They overlook your misery

You want me gone 

but you never let me go

I can go wherever I want to

With a whole eternity to waste

To restart, restore or mistake

Set me free from the mercy

and the strength of the weak

When you find out what this is

Please just forget me

You scroll for stranger's faces

As if they'll save you from silence

That speaks loud for itself

Before they can hear its cadence

And the curses in your prayers

Yet he calls my name

But you simply learned to love

and forgive your betrayer

The roars of the chasm

Between what you want the most

And all that you get to be

As pale echoes come and go

Telling you what he dare not say

Truth is frail, time is elastic

And it distracts you with ghosts

While he destroy and subjugates

He keeps killing me after I'm dead 

but he never let me go 

I Really Don't Dance Around Much Anymore

I was there with all I had

With poems and silent prayers

Ready to get my heart eaten whole

There was nothing I wanted more

Shaky hands, stars in my eyes

Open wide to a brand new world

You could hear my every heartbeat

Like sirens in new york city

In a numbing epiphany

A soothing suffering

Will you drop everything

and remember me like this

In the light of a burning room

Or just the bright of the moon

Though I don't dance around much

anymore I'd go out dancing with you

All eyes on us, all eyes on us

I saw illusion as resolution

As any inescapable crave

Written all over the biggest skies

It was just a dream, but it was mine

I could write many sad songs

About where I was that spring

It was raining, it was 2013 and

I wanted you to love me again

It's like it's been just a daydream

Someone had in their late teens

And fear is just a pale reverie

And overcome all the way

I'll walk with you as the past fades

So will you dance with me

Love Bomb

Convince me I'm wanting

and I want something from you

And there's nothing I can do

I'm just playing with the idea

of slipping into the temptation

of seeking my redemption

Cause I have nothing to do

I look at you while you daydream

With your vows and everything

You think you'll leave unscathed

Entertained seeing through you

Playing of who is fooling who

Until we go beyond the pale

Say I'm the need you needed

And my heart is the reward

You'll lie and cheat to win

Scream it from the rooftops

To the infinite lights glistening

We're in love with the promises

We'll break one by one

Just set off your love bomb

Use my desire against me

as a sharp knife held to my neck

Make me say what I've never said

My mind is full of eulogies

And sexy fantasies of desilusion

Lost in greed and confusion

And we play them in our bed

You look at me as I dissociate

I nod, I laugh and contemplate

All that I know it'll never be

My disbelief, your feign charm

Hidden riddles in our scars

Telling fairy tales of tragedy

Say fuck, try your luck

I'm at the reach of your touch

We know how good it hurts

If it feels anything like hell

To burn, to beat or to bruise

Just ignite the fuse

Let’s destroy everything 

See You On The Other Side

Lift up your head and tell me

with thousand suns looking at us

from million years ago

Does in your ears the bells say

Can you hear it as you look at me

For thousand years or so

We've been on our knees

Begging and wishing it all away

The sadness we can't negotiate

The loneliness of the worst kind

Cause the world won't stop

for our delusions and heartbreaks

Our truces and earthquakes

There are no bargains or alibis

See you on the other side

Let luck take care of itself

If fate catches up with time

See you on the other side

When we're both absolved

From passion and from vice

Don't you cry for me

And for what will never be

Cause you can't bend life

into what it used to be

You sealed your fate

now I'm sealing mine

Don't call my name

I see you on the other side

Come take my hand and tell me

with thousand oceans between us

at the mercy of the moon

Does in your heart a sudden quiver

Can you feel it as you walk away

and you can't make good

It's been a long time coming

I want to reclaim a part of my soul 

Long abandoned in a world of old

It lies waiting to be gotten back

I won't be yielded by blind hope

in a saving grace of a bad love

Or wait until we both go mad

Someday when you'll be out there

And I'll be at fanfares with flowers

in my hair

When you look at me you'll know

what you're looking at

With all signs hidden where 

they may be found

Someday when I'll be out there

And you won't be sad anymore

See you on the other side

When we're both cats 

Pixie Dream

I'm half your age, half your weight

I'm amused by the headlights

while your hands are all over me

Hang me on every word you say

And just let me there to dry

For your whole life if you need

Glorify me, tear me down

You have seen me in many faces

And you see me all around

As you paint me like a fantasy

Give it all, take it away

Keep me in a safe distance

I'll destroy you in the best ways

But I'll destroy you ruthlessly

Don't blink your eyes

You waited your whole life

For something that would

feel as raving as this

Let me love you

Like you always wanted to 

Or as much as I could

as a feverish reverie

Let me be the first

the last and then nothing

as a maniac pixie dream

I'm a ghost, I am yours

I'm what you're entitled to

And I'd never let you get away

Just go and toss me some words

And I promise to believe you

And forge the perfect dreamscape

You say you know me

as your brand new lease on life

Whatever you think that means

And your permission is all I need

I'm the thought you play around

To forgive and forget yourself

While you can't find a way out

of your self made misery

Tell me I opened your eyes

as I cultivate stars in mine

I wouldn't want anything more

I never wanted to die for you

But you know I probably would

If that meant true love