All We Wanted

It was a miracle and a prophecy
Breaking through forever and a day
And I knew you'd say otherwise
Praying backwards to another sky
I'm still fullfilled with doubt and will
But I'm not at all faithless if yet I
look for all the answers

Guilty be your restriction
If you only search for one thing
Damned be your decision
If you try to confine everything

We are starting with the ending
We are jumping on the bound
That's all we wanted
That's all we wanted
We are battling similar demons
We are casting one more vow
That's all we wanted
That's all we wanted

Of all the things that witnesses me
Your order is what owns me the least
Being the one behind my eyes and teeth
And still you can't believe me at all
You just won't listen until the end
But weighting ours intents you'll know
Whose passion can be spent

Disregarded be your doctrine
If you believe in just one single thing
No anchors dropped, no deal closed
My cravings are the things I chose

Kamikaze

When everything comes crashing in
Through out oblivion and oversight
And peace is blind to it's own bless
As you try to undress me of myself
But I won't dwell in your disbelief
You came here to stop me
but now I'm kissing you

And if we must cross mercy, so be it

I'll break through your neon
and your white noise
The light right through the glass
The crack right through the voice
It's a no man's land between
Choice and defense
No sense or rue to burst in consume
A kamikaze with a single rule

I see you try to colonize disparities
Brutal force by every blind strength
Measuring lengths of frailties and flaws
You say you haven't seen it coming at all
This vow right through the unconditional
I said I won't remain on your disbelief
Even if truth will be the only thing
left of me

And if we must cross mercy, so be it

Ending this the only way we could've made
In a place uncharted, just how we've started
And I know where you cut me and kiss me
And this is when the skies collides

Bow and Arrow

My feet are grounded where I begin
And all inclinations goes by demands
I'm misplaced to be where I'm not
So I'll never hit mislead in it's heart
Or discover what you think you know
When you throw your blow

I'm the one after my trust
You're the one before your mind
We're behind what we can be
But the wanting is only mine
Until I can't do this any more
You won't hold on any longer
Then I can't just close my eyes
Behind this bow and arrow

Residing in both edge and void
Eager won't settle and will won't recoil
Though I remain disbanded in doctrines  
And hitting against fears until I give in
Want and reason might collide and they will
And yet I can't stop you

You're strong enough for both of us
Above anything I dare to declare I feel
Fragile if compliant, damned if unyielding
And unforgiven for a one way strength
But I witness myself in both ends
And I'm the only one who's here

Helical

Need haunts me on my breath and knees
As I break my every heart, bone and vow
My skin deflates like a purpose yet unknown
The end is not my own and it leaves no clue
And everything else burns white in my view

And so I spin
And I swing
In the truth I'm residing
I'm not surviving and I'm not free
Outside this helical, I'm not me

I linger in the havoc and the profit I create
'Til I know how safe I'll be while I'm here
And it starves me of any kind of love or pain
The loss includes a gain and it's all I can see
I linger in my passion as if it's my last belief 

I count my wishes and days
And I know they don't fit anywhere
They go back and forth endlessly
As every word here gasps for air
I almost can't feel it still

Dear Life

If all the hours and all the whiles be let loose
When lies and truths has nothing more to bring
And it won't mean a thing, only a numb truce
On everything in between chance and end
I know all the hopes that will never overflow
And still swallows me whole though it flies by
As reason and love collide, but I'm aware

In the everlasting or ultimate 
I long for all the time that I remake
For the wait is ruthless as it's redeeming
In all my dreaming of forging or escaping
I'm begging for dear life

If everything stop at once through out a breath
The sky and ground be snatched right out of me
I'll be flesh and memory with no faith to protect
And I'll finally know there's nowhere else to go
Nowhere from here, only a sense that I lack
And I might be blind, but I won't convince you
I've been still alive and in love all of this time

I'm not my doom and I'm not my heart
And if I surrender I will never restart
Elation and fury will remain unjustified
So here I'm praying for more time

As I'm hopefully still
Silently drifiting
Urgently febrile
Groundless and yearning
But still here

For fullness and guidance I throw myself out
As need abounds, but I'm only standing still
Unsure of how freedom feels, but somehow
I'm not disowned from ending or beginning
When the world deflate, you won't know me
You'll go back to wherever you call home
Everything will be gone, but music will go on

Pink Mist

If I ever dare make myself something alive
All your plans and hands will endear to me
As a forged relief, a tough mercy
I came to know many things I haven't seen
That all along your eyes has tried to show me
And made a doubtless freedom of my omission

As I'll watch you from another life
I will live bodiless and without a name 

You lifted me up towards freedom
So I must try the pain
In the end of every kiss
We'll be a pink mist

I see every pray, truth and plea unraveled
And I may cheat on everything that loves me
Exactly how I'm about to believe
You were taken high just by a bit of my faith
You were proved right to lose for wavelenght
And there I expand because then it'll hurt less

So I recreate spirituality to make it fit in
There's no other shelter for body and memory
There's no other way to bend and break destiny

All buttons pressed
All words spoken
All triggers pulled
And all justice done

Into The Void

You know how silence serves
And how is the end of every world
I'm not hanging upon your every word
There's no much to believe in
Or to beg, borrow or steal
And what's conquered just won't
build you any more

And my heart beats louder than yours
Even if I've lost it so long ago

Nothing comes from nothing
Then there's nothing left to lose
Nothing is safe and nothing is a proof
Tonight we might desert all the things
We've always loved and held onto
But do you claim the same into void?

Whoever is gonna crack now
Won't have the time to take the blame
Excuses and rewards are all the same
All our wills hanging in a dying sky
All alligned and unjustified
And if it don't hurt you'll know how
kind a loss can be

Yes, we are pure flesh and memory
And you just can't believe me now
You can't tell me how we got here
But I can sure hold us in my hand
As power is always inviting
And it is where I'm supposed to be

Tonight the only light we might see
will burn it all down
All our truths and beliefs shattered
on the same ground
Doesn't take much to start and to
end a decaying peace
But it might cost two lives to declare
a damage deceased