Walking In The Sun

I don't look back

In the eye of my vices or reveries

My ghosts and my fantasies

They were all left to die

I opened my sore eyes

I opened them myself

To see there was nothing

brighter than the truth

Unrepentant as it is

As I set myself free

And my spirit is set loose

I seek no absolution

I seek no defense

I'll never be justified

I want to feel the wind

I want to start again

I'm meant to see the light

I don't have to hide 

I don't have to lie

I don't have to run 

I just want to be the one

who's walking in the sun

I don't trade

with deceivers and foes  

For my blood and my bones

No matter how hard they try

I won't take love as a bribe

You could never afford it

And we'll both starve

The truth which won't bend

For it is still unrepentant

I won't go back in the dark

Smokescreen

We both lost in life

And fell in love in a time

Of distraction, greed

and recreational lies

Facades and veiled smut

You became a snob

I became a slut

Both seeking something

to sink our teeth in

Bounded by fetishes

of what the truth can't be

Saying what they want to hear

Blaming the silence 

for being ruthlessly loud

So all you do is dance around

While they don't care 

And they don't care at all

In a smokescreen

Is it you or a reflection

A disguise or a projection

In a smokescreen

Can you say in a blur

was she me was I her

In a smokescreen

We're both lost in a maze

And my eyes still ache

from the tear gas and climax

and relentless heartbreak

The naked leads the blind

Liars gloats and toasts

As the stoic writhes

Sat on a stepping stone

with the word sex etched on

They can't hear you screaming

From your echo chamber

Through moans and shambles

Dodging the shards

Of beauty and disbelief

They all steal and cheat

And lie to your face

Yet you keep blaming me

You can't numb everyone

with orgasms and promises

We're all angels and demons

Saints, mortals and heros

no longer playing by the rules

So if I knew that all it took 

was cheating, stealing 

deceiving and lying to you

You just had to tell me to

Let them cover their eyes

Let them feign their grace

Let them play the fool

Let them play the game

Forget Me

You purge and exorcize

And purify the darkest halls

You abuse your faith 

holding on to anything at all

And beg til your knees bleed

At night he calls my name

So often, so much, so loud

You too started calling for me

In every broken mirror

You see me looking back at you

Your lips, hips and chest

The illusion I believed too

The freedom that won't set you free

Time is long, truth is elastic

They all are so jealous and cruel

They overlook your misery

You want me gone 

but you never let me go

I can go wherever I want to

With a whole eternity to waste

To restart, restore or mistake

Set me free from the mercy

and the strength of the weak

When you find out what this is

Please just forget me

You scroll for stranger's faces

As if they'll save you from silence

That speaks loud for itself

Before they can hear its cadence

And the curses in your prayers

Yet he calls my name

But you simply learned to love

and forgive your betrayer

The roars of the chasm

Between what you want the most

And all that you get to be

As pale echoes come and go

Telling you what he dare not say

Truth is frail, time is elastic

And it distracts you with ghosts

While he destroy and subjugates

He keeps killing me after I'm dead 

but he never let me go