Siren

I'm million years old and 
I've never got to fall asleep
In either of my lifetimes
From sunfalling to sunrise
I only knew the torment of the wait
Which used to creep by the days
And it'd lengthen in pale nights
Til one time you heard me calling

In all my wandering discoveries
I found out time wasn't mine to lose
And one day it could turn on me
But I've never gave up destiny
And I chased every promise of life
Through dark days and pale nights
Til one time I heard you calling

A long time ago
I left a part of my soul
back in your promise land
And with your own hands
You still want more

My love is an ancient curse
You've set yourself free
My love is a dying prayer
In your time of need
My love is a faded dream
You've woke up in time
A blinding light
A poem you failed to rhyme
A dimmed fantasy of eternity
A tale a siren would tell
In your silent sleep

I saw my soul breaking in two
As my heart rebelled violently
I knew I've lost it to the waves
Across the island in your gaze
My eyes had the size of the moon
Filling the sky, ceasing the gloom
And soon darkness met the day
I never could wish it all away

You came to me like a bliss
And a bless I've always craved
At the reach of my bare touch
You can only dream so much
Til the want outgrow the need
Blinded by light, I see clear
The journey that guides me

My love is an ancient curse
You've set yourself free
My love is a dying prayer
In your time of need
My love is a faded dream
You've woke up in time
A drowning light
A death you refused to die
A plea sent to outer space
A tale a siren would tell
As you drift away

Tell me when was the last time
You've closed your eyes
So you could see in the dark
When was the last time
You saw heart and reason part
Somewhere in a dream
Loosening hold on all that you know
So through silence you can soar to me

Love and light holding hands
(I've never knew death so alive)
In a kiss where all pleas ends
(In a place of sweet sacrifice)
You sought for me so here I am
(I see the end and the start unite)
In the deep sea of the north lands
(As wish and illusion collide)
From sunfalling to sunrise
To solstices and sunsets

Time became imaginary
With a promise to return again
To the moment where it all began
I knew silence and I knew peace
of single years lasting for centuries
As nothing happened and nothing
kept happening

You showed me grace at such great cost
Though it was a line we both crossed
Breaking the waves which we were tossed
Can you say every love was simply lost?
I'll always wonder in my deepest thoughts
Will every grace come at such great cost?

My love is an ancient curse
You've set yourself free
My love is a dying prayer
In your time of need
My love is a faded dream
You've woke up in time
A boundless light
A merciless sacrifice
An ungrateful state of wait
A tragic tale a siren would tell
To the broken waves

I'm million years old
Watching them unravel
Through each lifetime
Every love, every time
And forging once again
The ending with my hands
'til it'd be covered by the sand
Letting it wash ashore
It's all a dream like it was before

I wonder if I'll see you again
and I think I might do

Lost in the landscape
somewhere in the sunsets of northwest

Nemesis

I know there's nowhere to go from here

And though I came this far in a slow climb

To watch time fade and pulverize in my hands

I also know faith brought me then here I am

I wouldn't know where to go if I could go back

And I never will because I simply don't deserve

All is answered and by default it is resigned

And I really thought all those battles were mine

All of us are someone's devil

And we all got a war inside our mind

I'm just the last one standing

The one who won before the fight

And to rage against the blinding light

And until salvation find me

I'll be the nemesis

I know there's nowhere to go from here

As everythings fades into mere nothings

And all the means became sad loose ends

But if faith brought me then here I am

Look at me, you'll see I seek no redemption

What's forgiveness when you refuse to yield?

With the iron and steel intent to always go on

Towards these battles of mine and then on

No cause is worth dying for

For one who's never lived at all

I've seen empires rise and fall

I learned to kill for what I want

Don't give me a new chance

For destination and consequence

'Cause none of it will matter

in the long run

All of us are someone's devil

And we all got a war inside our mind

I'm just the last one standing

The one who won before the fight

And now I know

there's nowhere to go

That world is not here anymore

If it ever was

Last Hour of The Day

These are simple days 

I know how they start

And how they end

Sometimes a thought

comes to mind

I've been true to myself

Avoiding no questions

Forging solutions

And giving them time

I don't run and I don't hide

From my days of wondering

and my nights of longing

Or from the noise silence makes

In the last hour of the day

I haven't had much to say

And it'd do no good

If I'd decide to try

It's been a difficult time

to everyone after all

I've been careful

Roaming haunted corners

and corridors of the mind

Painting shadows on the wall

I don't run and I don't hide

From my days of wanting

and my nights of faltering

Or from the sense it all make

In the last hour of the day

And if it breaks my heart

It is also my saving grace

Just to know how much

difference the truth makes

In the last hour of the day

Set In Stone

We both know we know the truth

And every reality bigger than words

And every feather mightier than sword
That tries so hard to cut off their roots
But we both know we know the truth
Zombies and dreamers marching on
Trying to keep time from moving on
While they say their prayers out loud
Civil wars and angry storms raging on
Twisting rules and breaking bones

Closing in with a wall of sound

Standing on the cliff you might find

It's too late to retrace one step behind

Too late to block and destroy the fate

Or a past that you fed and wants to erase

No matter if you were not there to live

No matter if you won't be there to see

Though now is dead and gone

It's set in stone, my dear

We both know we know the truth

And we both know how much it means

Though it keeps tearing apart at the seams

And it keeps coming out right through you

So we both know we know the truth

I know you don't dare looking back now

You go on blocking the noise somehow

Because you can't afford to turn away

Still dreamers and sleepwalkers yell out

Their empty prayers as a wall of sound

As if we couldn't see the light of day

Standing on the cliff you might find

It's too late to retrace one step behind

Too late to block and destroy the fate

Or a past that you fed and wants to erase

No matter if you believe no one knows

No matter if you think we should let it go

You just can't change what's done

Now it's set in stone

As we see time going by the boards

Something you'll beg, borrow and steal

And run so sweaty to reach for more

Though it is not yours to lose

To twist, to bend or to use

To alter, to hunt or pursuit

And in spite of you time will

tell the truth because we both know

It did so many times before

Anchor

I've learned the time in ways I've never imagine

As a hurricane and as a breeze, easy come, easy go

I hold it with my fingertips, my nails and teeth

I always end up losing track of it and letting it go

Today I prayed to Neptune under the waves

Whatever mercy you have please have it on me

In these times of seeing the end as you begin

For my heart travels among rocky islands

Yes, I jumped on board

One vice to another, ready, set, go

Adrift swimming far from the shore

Seasick I keep swinging and swaying

And yet a voice keeps saying

Don't drop your anchor

It gets easier to read the water and the skies

If the story is written on the waves and thunderbolts

And my natural force lays with no remorse

As I become one with the wind, sky and the earth

One day I'll have conquered the lands and the sea

And the roaming won't be so scary anymore

Junkie

When you opened your spaced out eyes

You almost knew the world in front of you

The rush to the head, the cold running sweat

Your tongue numb, god gave you a turn

And you won't change it for a damn thing

All your life you've waited for the time

The devil would buy a soul like yours

And you'd sell it for a couple of words

For all that it is worth and for what's not

As long as you could take your long shot

The junkie started a joke

The addiction is it's own reward

Once you're never fully satisfied

Craving what you're owed

So thirsty for what others afford

You're high on your scarce supply

Drinking other people's kool aid

Cause it's paid and sold

The junkie started a joke

Every single time feels like the first

When the day outside burned too bright

A borrowed state of bliss, flying to abyss

Screaming into the void how you rejoice

To be the one dreaming in both worlds

Please tell me are you ready to confess

Or would you rather bleed your truths out

From down your nose, staining your clothes

Trapped in twisted waves, no wish to escape

You just wouldn't know who you are

You woke up in a world

You didn't dreamed of

Rounded by limelights

And nooses and knots

Wishing for sweet silence

To flood your deaf ears

Your prayers and dreams

could mean anything

Rogue

Don't you know I was reborn to run

I've followed every rule and now

I know where they all end up

Not afraid to look the truth in the eye

Been too close to the end many times

to not know now what it looks like

The wish to see this whole world on fire

It's been twisting and eating me inside

Trapped in an awake fantasy

No, I don't need your dirty hands

trying to bend my neck or my heart

Don't you forget that when a life ends 

Then another one shall start

No turning down or turning back now

I'll be screaming out loud til ears bleed

I won't ask if you can give me what I need

I'll go ahead and I won't wait for the end

to come find me and meet me halfway

I'll just go rogue and take what I want

And I want it now and my way

One day this world gave me eyes to see

And I never forgotten how it was like

To wake up for the first time and be free

Aware that it wasn't someone else's dream

And I'm not unarmed as you would think

I've every drop of blood beneath the skin

Roaming this breeding ground for war

I haven't created it, but I'll might take part

For the truths that couldn't

have been brought up to light

For the scarcity of the times 

And the vows we didn't say

out loud yet we crossed the line

For the promises we should've

known they couldn't have been kept

For the limits we tried to reset

When everything else failed

I couldn't afford never trying