Nine Lives

As you accept destiny with it's tragedy and farce

The irredeemable evil which plays its part

Has kept me in its mercy for just so long

Once you're the one being kept and built

Loved, snitched, betrayed and killed

What else could you possibly die for?

Life curses the bravery of wanting too much

Watching blind faith turning into pure yearn

I think I've lost a few parts of my soul

In a world they deceive you with the truth

And gut you as sacrifice for the greater good

What else could you possibly die for?

In the thunderous echo of memory

I know you'll remember me

From flesh to flesh, ash to ash

Face to face, eye for an eye

My heart bears the weight of nine lives

Almost loved, almost chosen

Almost risen, but never dead

As you see too many suns setting on you

The rapture of nothing else left to do

Has witnessed me with calm affection

Fate always repeating the same ghostly dance

And the way how it takes you by the hand

To bring demise, then resurrection

I've lost too much time and too many lives

Searching for lovers in torturers

I don't know who to blame anymore

Endless negotiations, trials and tribulations

Until I no longer recognize myself

Though I can't be someone else

Avalanche

In a dream, I hear you whispering
A drift, a secret thrill that speaks
But the claim of devils and angels just
sounds the same to me

I see years ahead but I'm scared to blink

And dusks and dawns won't mean a thing

And we get lost in a primal greed
a storm of want that buries skin and sin

Guide me to you, scream for me

With the voice of thousand ghosts

And the soul of million years old

You stand there as my mirage

Embodying the prophecy

The desilusion and the belief

Through the avalanche

In an echo far off, I hear you damning

The hunger outweighing the guilt

And the relief seeing reason being

engulfed by touch and feels

The silence of god leaving us to decide

To break down or break free in the paradise

Love coaxed us into just to see our

souls being left to die

When our promises echo in the sky

And we hear them thundering down

Soft wishes that settle gently in the mind

And things we only know now

In a reverie, you wake from a nightmare

Of world endings and damnations

To kiss the devil you came to know

So we won't feel this pain anymore

Scorpio

I found omens when I was seeking them

In your eyes of despondency and greed

Dying in my triumph, no mercy or pain

And fever burns me thousand kisses deep

I feel my soul bifurcating as

wanting cruely betrays the need

It makes it's way to the bone

With it's promise and defeat

You were hungry, you were blind

You said a prayer and sunk your teeth

I offered my good faith in sacrifice

It brought you down to your knees

I am the balm and the wound

Your perdition and your doom

The hottest devil you've ever

sold your dark soul to

You're the malady and the remedy

My venom and the insanity

A broken hallelujah to the skies

in my greatest time of need

Surrendered, we close our eyes

to see where scorpios goes to die

I look at you as you contorts

With the bitter taste of justice done

The thirst your wine won't quench

And your wanting turning into stone

I kiss your lips and your mind wonders

How can salvation kill you like this

But your hollowed heart always knew 

The cure was worst than the disease

We surrendered to a hopeless pain

To see love as the deadliest drug

We're cristalized and numb 

to the danger of surviving

Tell me about the end of the world

The cold wars we wage on us

To make it through the pretty

the ugly, the enticing

They say you'll kill me

If I don't kill you first

But how can I rescue you

If I am much worse?

Veneralia

I'm not brave enough to say

I stand here redeemed and justified

Like an impious to your grace

Steadly looking into your eyes

I was the one to defy

The purest heavens and the

highest skies, with their

gods and saints in disguise

I was bound to fall and sin

I'm not asking for mercy

I don't deserve anything

They say I'm caught in the middle 

Of a prophecy of peace and evil

That I've woke up in a delirium

With fake promises and riddles

But when he took both my hands

I took my demons out to dance

Spinning fiercely in blind faith

I lay in your altar, I succumb to my pain

Venus, my madness witnesses my love

And I surrendered so below as above 

If I'm crazy I thought I wouldn't know

Venus, I've renounced the dream

And the hope that have never been

Then irredeemably I fall for him

Venus, here I bare body and soul

There's nothing more I owe

Let me die in my glory once more

I was young when I first knew

all the misery and decay

of the truth and all it's moments

when it cheats it's virtue

And how it never set me free

I never expected it to

Once it serves the fantasy

They say I've parted with reason

In my vows and self treasons

That I got lost among the legion

Running from all of my illusions

But when he swore his death to me

I felt my soul burning to a crisp

Challenging me to resist

But fate was made as we kissed

So Venus tell me

How many angels will be left for dead

How many gods we're going to upset

Until we'll be something real

How many saints will be sacrificed

How many prophets will be decried

Until we'll be something new

I'll be lost until you reveal 

your face in a lucid dream

Though we don't deserve anything

Walking In The Sun

I don't look back

In the eye of my vices or reveries

My ghosts and my fantasies

They were all left to die

I opened my sore eyes

I opened them myself

To see there was nothing

brighter than the truth

Unrepentant as it is

As I set myself free

And my spirit is set loose

I seek no absolution

I seek no defense

I'll never be justified

I want to feel the wind

I want to start again

I'm meant to see the light

I don't have to hide 

I don't have to lie

I don't have to run 

I just want to be the one

who's walking in the sun

I don't trade

with deceivers and foes  

For my blood and my bones

No matter how hard they try

I won't take love as a bribe

You could never afford it

And we'll both starve

The truth which won't bend

For it is still unrepentant

I won't go back in the dark

Smokescreen

We both lost in life

And fell in love in a time

Of distraction, greed

and recreational lies

Facades and veiled smut

You became a snob

I became a slut

Both seeking something

to sink our teeth in

Bounded by fetishes

of what the truth can't be

Saying what they want to hear

Blaming the silence 

for being ruthlessly loud

So all you do is dance around

While they don't care 

And they don't care at all

In a smokescreen

Is it you or a reflection

A disguise or a projection

In a smokescreen

Can you say in a blur

was she me was I her

In a smokescreen

We're both lost in a maze

And my eyes still ache

from the tear gas and climax

and relentless heartbreak

The naked leads the blind

Liars gloats and toasts

As the stoic writhes

Sat on a stepping stone

with the word sex etched on

They can't hear you screaming

From your echo chamber

Through moans and shambles

Dodging the shards

Of beauty and disbelief

They all steal and cheat

And lie to your face

Yet you keep blaming me

You can't numb everyone

with orgasms and promises

We're all angels and demons

Saints, mortals and heros

no longer playing by the rules

So if I knew that all it took 

was cheating, stealing 

deceiving and lying to you

You just had to tell me to

Let them cover their eyes

Let them feign their grace

Let them play the fool

Let them play the game

Forget Me

You purge and exorcize

And purify the darkest halls

You abuse your faith 

holding on to anything at all

And beg til your knees bleed

At night he calls my name

So often, so much, so loud

You too started calling for me

In every broken mirror

You see me looking back at you

Your lips, hips and chest

The illusion I believed too

The freedom that won't set you free

Time is long, truth is elastic

They all are so jealous and cruel

They overlook your misery

You want me gone 

but you never let me go

I can go wherever I want to

With a whole eternity to waste

To restart, restore or mistake

Set me free from the mercy

and the strength of the weak

When you find out what this is

Please just forget me

You scroll for stranger's faces

As if they'll save you from silence

That speaks loud for itself

Before they can hear its cadence

And the curses in your prayers

Yet he calls my name

But you simply learned to love

and forgive your betrayer

The roars of the chasm

Between what you want the most

And all that you get to be

As pale echoes come and go

Telling you what he dare not say

Truth is frail, time is elastic

And it distracts you with ghosts

While he destroy and subjugates

He keeps killing me after I'm dead 

but he never let me go