Valley Girl

I ain't no Valley Girl
I know hell and heaven by the taste
And if you no longer know me
You won't dare to owe me
Your sticks and stones can go to waste

I can take and break for worst or better
And doesn't matter whatever you say to me

Oh, no
I ain't no Valley Girl
No more

I ain't no Valley Girl
My heart does beats on it's own
And I up until here I came
I've tried, I've made a name
And this is a sound around someone

I can take and break for worst or better
And doesn't matter whatever you say to me

Moonless

Let's pretend you no longer know yourself
That you're not thirsty for anything else
And you can't feel your blood running backwards
Let's pretend you're still deathly choiceless
That you're not running and you're still voiceless
And none breeze could have blown towards me

Nothing is flawed and nothing is written
But I see better in the dark
I see better in the dark

There's only an artificial light here
And the world around just falls away
Too much boosts to break our bones
And none of us and none of this
And we are moonless now

Let's pretend there's one thing real out there
That it's your plain truth, clean and bare
And you can feel every inch of it below your skin
Let's pretend my taste changed irreversibly
That words numbly flows and you blow'em strongly
And all our deaths and blooms are dead to you

No silence is silencer though no water runs still
But I see better in the dark
I see better in the dark

And you can try to do away with the light
that don't decompose
That don't dissolve upon your big sky
But you know the kind of love you create
That you afraid to wake and know the truth

Coral Snake

You swear you see five times ahead
And for that you deserve the meat in your mouth
And your home ground and every war you impel
But your colors aren't true even for yourself

No one sees you here so you can't be stopped
You can't be dogded and then you know your time
Downright of the weight of your will and lies

But you were not let in willingly
You just broke yourself in through misery
Like a devil watching a moment of doubt
A coral snake waiting to take a life at a bound

When you fell from your liquid sky
Your cloud nine said a lot about what you're not
And you never thought you could be drained like this
But part of you is poison and the other doesn't exist

Low and distorted, you still can't be stopped
As you suck the light and crawl through your fog
Though you're never a damn inch closer to god

It's not like we can't hear each other
Through air shifts of our every move
And now I know better all your ends
And if you don't know consequence
Then I'll bring it to you

Only welcome when not seen
Only left in when not heard
Only allowed when not seeked

Basalt

I'll stay long enough to watch it burn
So much 'til my skin melt beneath the sun
And you can only hold me for so long

I knew hope and fury when they were in hands
Couldn't let it quench and dissolve up in the sky
And right there I still expected truths turn back to lies

There's no chance or choice or amnesty
I cannot lie levity, I'm unchained and in great ablaze
And no belied grace could be this overwhelming
Chaos dwells until I'll be pure basalt

I'll stay long enough to watch it fall
So far to know how fast it'll hit and crawl
And no one will break it in the sake of rue

If there's a truth boiling down below
It's easy to know because it's just who we are
And not who the wind would simply blow for too far

Mud

All traces erased and we're dead in terms
Now you're so enlighten I can see you through
Pushed beyond certainties into urging benefits
And only recognizable into forged shapes again

Waiting for the end to come to be saved
'Cause before being a liar you're afraid
Every sound bends and breaks in your mouth
Truth never set you free, what'd it do for you now?

I know you don't need continuity or control
And you don't even want to change the world
But every end grows to be what it deserves
So this is nothing but mud

There's something about this world on the bend
You'll be damned if you're to ever open the eyes
So we might never know the truth is pure scarcity
And silence might kill all that would never be

How much can it still be when it becomes a lie?
You found yourself, but don't know where it applies

I know you don't need warranty or self rules
And you don't even need whole truths
I just didn't know that in the end everything were
nothing but mud in their hands

Whoever makes you lie
You were the first to close your eyes
Teach me what you don't know
Show me something that you're not
And we'll see what belief can do though
Nothing can save you from you

Shiva

I was the one pulled towards law and woe
With all my bents and instinct in the rough
Right where I'm forked into passion and light

Reborn and rebuilt with steel intents
Couldn't help bless and curse split and die
So I forget the time that no longer belongs to me

But in there we always find true death

Rough to delicate
Thirst and wisdom separates
The devil and deaths are mine
I don't renounce or repent
From the force I'm given
The devil and deaths are mine
As an ending or beginning, I persevere
In a truth that witnesses me

I was the one undressed from reason and right
And what's mine now marches on it's own alight
So you can borrow or steal the faith I don't feel

I'm not immune, spared, or unscathed
But I don't need a lie to be saved
And I'll land back towards arrival resides

But in there we always find true death

Make me one again, make me float against
and towards a higher ground
You torn me apart with my devotion

Something In The Wind

I picked myself up again and it
remained uncertain as it has always been
As my skin felt tense when you breathed out
I was small and needing to be found
And all I wanted was to break myself open

We're slow dancing the last song playing
And don't we love it when we hear it
We saw the truth and sour in raw silence
With strenght and violence 'til we were blind

And there were something in the wind
That broke our bonds and burst our doors
That got me heavily challenged and unheard
Something that stole my voice and my scene
Yes, there were something in the wind

I wasted welcomes and all veils
as you tossed prayers and cliches through
And if they were true I'll never know
Though I can certainly see my words justified
And the right spot where your love lies

And there were something in the wind
That wore out our hearts and our beliefs
That got us flooded and made a sea of me
Something that changed who I've been
Yes, there were something in the wind

And even though every cell of myself screams
To bring what it could've been instead
My steps took me where I know myself
And then I go

Seasick

Toss me a ceiling as my mind betrays me
I try to set pointers in a timeless useless space
Our faults and fights seems to float and mix
While a last kiss shall give up and fade

Honey, tell me
If I pray to heaven above
will it pull me up to breathe again?

Before he left stodly he said to me
"Learn to swim, girl, grow some wings"
Grow some gills and eat your soul and feels"
But silence ate the time that I can't kill
And water ate the tears that I can't cry

I had enough of faith
I can't have no more
I had enough of time
I can't have no more
I had enough of fire
I can't have no more
I had enough of air
I can't have no more

Would it be surprising if we know we're dying?
Would it matter if we know it's getting dark outside?
Would it matter if it'd start to rain?

Butterfly

Then I might spread what is my own
And embrace the warmth when it comes
It's my curse, my bonfire, my kindness act
It's the other face I give to the words I said
Then I'm flesh until I'm a fucking hurricane

A long way from dust and in dust I am again
For my heart is limited and won't be set free
Inside of what are my vices and my strengths 
Though I can only wish to fly out of a memory

Waterfall of luck
Honey from a butterfly
Flapping wings through a meteor shower
Caught in a frost hour and justified
Handfull of pollen
Ghost of a butterfly
Keeping winds and rains for dried grounds
I'll fly towards the sun and lands beyond
To never return

So I gather these sands on my acre of moon
And forge my wills of escape to deeper glooms
It's my build, my reverance to my eager routines
That feeds drifts and dysfunctional doctrines

All I can do is undo myself
'Cause I can't grow a small faith
I can't put god in anybody's feet
But while you're eating words and seeds
I have been painting daisies on my weeds

No, I won't stay
Almost untouched, almost arrived
Almost loved, almost translated
Almost imaculated, almost above

Playlist - Março

1.In This Moment - Blood
2.Nine Inch Nails - Starfuckers
3.Tori Amos - Liquid Diamonds
4.Antony & The Johnsons - River of Sorrow
5.Pink Floyd - Hey You
6.Jay Vaquer - Você Não Me Conhece
7.Fiona Apple - Dull Tool
8.Bjork - Unravel
9.Lana del Rey - Carmen
10.Garbage - Stupid Girl

Supernova

No adoration got acquainted with rue
But it sure tastes like something borrowed, yet fresh
A body faster than mind, I don't fear your inevitable

In unquiet redemption, all my will is still true
And the only concrete thing that's left of me
Brought up to higher heavens to know my seed
Has deserted a last piece of ground under my feet

I had to float through
I had to billow out
I had to die that little
And so I did

If I can't choose between flesh and light
And I can only survive in a heavy breath
And in these silent cries for help
If the sound of hurricanes and small prayers
In large layers covers everything I see
Hope burned in every shot
Belied in every death

I took my miracles where I could get them
Right when whispers and praisers became unheard
So I thought about drinking heaven for the last time
To know how fast loss can be drained back into light

I had to brutally unravel
I had to let senses go
I had to die just that little
And so I did

Evasão

Eu só queria que ventasse. Que as janelas batessem, as cortinas voassem, que entrasse chuva ácida no piso impecavelmente encerado, mas não sei nem se tem piso. Eu também não tenho pernas, de qualquer forma. Às vezes não tenho nem mesmo a mim. Arcar com a impotência do avesso do tão chamado senso comum é a punição por hora. Ou se faz um degrau, ou se faz um declínio.

Eu queria que a vidraça partisse em estilhaços e permitisse que o ar escapasse igual bicho, implacável e veloz. Se espalhasse em um contágio imediato, que pudesse ser ouvido a 7 mil quilômetros, ainda que só suspiro. Eu sei que é vontade de surgimento, de um delinear de formas claras, formas amplas. Formas que não se dissolvessem em mera conveniência. Eu estou louca? Não posso estar. Posso?

Eu sempre soube que o silêncio viria com a escuridão e que a escuridão viria. Sou guiada por sons agora. Deixo que a minha mudez se permita e ela se permite mais do que se fosse dilacerada e já tem muita coisa dilacerada pelo caminho. Tanta coisa. Tantos pedaços tão disformes que ninguém mais sabe onde se encaixava, dá pra acreditar? É o que muita gente ainda está tentando fazer. Bem difícil isso, aliás.

Não, ninguém sabe o peso de mais nada e está tudo bem por enquanto. Acho que é isso que está fazendo tudo prosseguir. O peso das coisas que ninguém tem coragem nem de pensar em carregar. É errado, não é direito de ninguém, apesar de lhe ter sido depositado uma vez. Não, não foi só dado, foi empurrado goela abaixo, e é isso que impermeabiliza os conceitos que todo mundo cria secretamente. Cavalo dado não se olha os dentes. Aliás, o cavalo lhe foi dado para que o deixe cavalgar livremente, ainda que ele lhe pisoteie, ele não sabe o que faz. Oh, sim.

Eu queria que as portas se abrissem, fossem arrombadas de voar a maçaneta na cara de quem está tentando fechar. Do que você quer se livrar? Do mundo lá fora? Acho que todo mundo gostaria, mas a gente aprende que não é assim ainda na escola. Agora faltar um dia é pular um século. Quer pular um século, mas poucos vivem um século para conseguirem viver no dia depois. E desse jeito nem deve ter muita graça.

Eu queria que o céu despencasse de onde foi colocado para pairar sem graça acima de abnegação. Eu queria que o céu despencasse em cada cabeça que se ache no direito de exigir que ele continue pairando sem graça sob a escassez.

American Flag

Don't you know we were already dead on Sullivan Street
And their eyes were helicopters lights looking down for us?
We thought when those flags would wave we could breathe
We thought our lungs would grow, but honey, they just burst

"The twilight has fallen", they were screaming all around
Chants of proud and prophecies between bright stars
Always terrified and enslavered in the home of the brave
And now everyday is the day when the music dies

He seemed to be enjoyed, role model, son, pride and joy
But when I fell on my knees, I burned the american flag
I didn't wanted him to die young, sad, frustrated and alone
But I fell on my knees and I burned the american flag
So I'm just here sat waiting for the blow

In the day when there were hyms and candles at Camden Town
I think I almost heard you say that I would never walk alone
Faster than that lost fight would ever dare pulling me back down
With a promise to serve, some lies to tell and some surfur bombs

I give my fucking badge back 'cause it's not my duty to ensure
Their china white, their rush of blood or hollow blue blurs

Those bombs were fury and lust, steel and rust
Sticks and stones, dust and fucking bones

Ninguém vive a paixão impunemente.
A intensidade é uma doença contagiosa.
E eu não concebo a vida sem contágios.
Sei sobre a dor da solidão, a falta de ar e a perda de chão.
Sei que nada mais vai ter importância.
Sei que o mundo vai ficar pequeno e perder o sentido.

Nome Próprio

Winehouse

Darling, I'll let you in rehab
Cause your tears won't dry on their own
Mr. Jones made you cry 'till the death
Since then, you just woke up alone
Oh, honey, you should be stronger than me
Take the box to see my surprise
I heard when you said "go ahead, do me good"
'Cause Mr. Magic didn't make you take fly

Get me off this winehouse
I've lost love in a losing game
I'll get your off this winehouse
Before your mind start again

So honey, you're not the only addicted
'Cause I'm also here almost dying of love
I keep myself up as the sun goes down
To make sure for us that our day will come
No, no one will come to crash your party tonight
So take your time, take back your life and arise
He said "just friends", that's the only thing is through
But it'd more 'cause I know that you're no good

Ferris Wheel

I detach from the flight then I recline my resistence
The crescent airs put me back in those shooting lines again
As I dive off the clouds my heart pounds and slowly knows
These wore off words can't be projected in thin air

Once the colors grows and the high blows starts to ease
I feel these shades drowning in the haze of my reveries
As I look down, I'm three tones out from my own will
And soon I'll know myself again in this ferris wheel

One minute ago and I swore it was going to rain
In the moment before the moment unfurl in fury and strenght
It expanded hopefully at the time when I felt everything
And all along up there it was piped air whistling in my ears

Since I see it all assuage among proper gauges and scales
I know I'm not far from sticking my heart out from bale
Safe, clean and sound, my hope is bounded to be distilled
And then fates will find themselves in this ferris wheel

I let this late calm start to float and grow a soul on me
And I set free what I haven't said to set my mind at ease
I spare every pray alibi, 'cause they're no longer mine
And they've never shifted or got a lift in a wide open sky

Finally risen some decibels above reason and sighs
The raindrops are close and slowly frozen beneath the light
Captive for life in the spirit from where I have a clean view
On this eternal unwitting spinning glassed ferris wheel

Reverie

My love wore boots like he was in war
And wore his horse to take me to the shore
My love used to celebrate natural bents
All them acquired from self experiments
My love would always lay down his hair
And never bragged for surviving the rain
My love used to keep rainbows in our bed
And draw bright days in our window panes

I still wait for him to take me home
But if he'd not come, I'll go alone

My love wore his poncho like a royal cape
And didn't need a carnival or an eventual escape
My love used to treasure and protect our liberty
And much he would humbly offer to me
My love used to sing among the mountains
Where thunderbolts and fake hyms can't reach
My love lived for my eyes, heart and veins
Always stretching towards both sides of glory

I still wait for him to take me home
But if he'd not come, I'll go alone

I just wanted to live in still waters
I just wanted to live in an acre of moon
In the gloom of sapience, where the air runs dries