I Really Don't Dance Around Much Anymore

I was there with all I had

With poems and silent prayers

Ready to get my heart eaten whole

There was nothing I wanted more

Shaky hands, stars in my eyes

Open wide to a brand new world

You could hear my every heartbeat

Like sirens in new york city

In a numbing epiphany

A soothing suffering

Will you drop everything

and remember me like this

In the light of a burning room

Or just the bright of the moon

Though I don't dance around much

anymore I'd go out dancing with you

All eyes on us, all eyes on us

I saw illusion as resolution

As any inescapable crave

Written all over the biggest skies

It was just a dream, but it was mine

I could write many sad songs

About where I was that spring

It was raining, it was 2013 and

I wanted you to love me again

It's like it's been just a daydream

Someone had in their late teens

And fear is just a pale reverie

And overcome all the way

I'll walk with you as the past fades

So will you dance with me

Love Bomb

Convince me I'm wanting

and I want something from you

And there's nothing I can do

I'm just playing with the idea

of slipping into the temptation

of seeking my redemption

Cause I have nothing to do

I look at you while you daydream

With your vows and everything

You think you'll leave unscathed

Entertained seeing through you

Playing of who is fooling who

Until we go beyond the pale

Say I'm the need you needed

And my heart is the reward

You'll lie and cheat to win

Scream it from the rooftops

To the infinite lights glistening

We're in love with the promises

We'll break one by one

Just set off your love bomb

Use my desire against me

as a sharp knife held to my neck

Make me say what I've never said

My mind is full of eulogies

And sexy fantasies of desilusion

Lost in greed and confusion

And we play them in our bed

You look at me as I dissociate

I nod, I laugh and contemplate

All that I know it'll never be

My disbelief, your feign charm

Hidden riddles in our scars

Telling fairy tales of tragedy

Say fuck, try your luck

I'm at the reach of your touch

We know how good it hurts

If it feels anything like hell

To burn, to beat or to bruise

Just ignite the fuse

Let’s destroy everything 

See You On The Other Side

Lift up your head and tell me

with thousand suns looking at us

from million years ago

Does in your ears the bells say

Can you hear it as you look at me

For thousand years or so

We've been on our knees

Begging and wishing it all away

The sadness we can't negotiate

The loneliness of the worst kind

Cause the world won't stop

for our delusions and heartbreaks

Our truces and earthquakes

There are no bargains or alibis

See you on the other side

Let luck take care of itself

If fate catches up with time

See you on the other side

When we're both absolved

From passion and from vice

Don't you cry for me

And for what will never be

Cause you can't bend life

into what it used to be

You sealed your fate

now I'm sealing mine

Don't call my name

I see you on the other side

Come take my hand and tell me

with thousand oceans between us

at the mercy of the moon

Does in your heart a sudden quiver

Can you feel it as you walk away

and you can't make good

It's been a long time coming

I want to reclaim a part of my soul 

Long abandoned in a world of old

It lies waiting to be gotten back

I won't be yielded by blind hope

in a saving grace of a bad love

Or wait until we both go mad

Someday when you'll be out there

And I'll be at fanfares with flowers

in my hair

When you look at me you'll know

what you're looking at

With all signs hidden where 

they may be found

Someday when I'll be out there

And you won't be sad anymore

See you on the other side

When we're both cats 

Pixie Dream

I'm half your age, half your weight

I'm amused by the headlights

while your hands are all over me

Hang me on every word you say

And just let me there to dry

For your whole life if you need

Glorify me, tear me down

You have seen me in many faces

And you see me all around

As you paint me like a fantasy

Give it all, take it away

Keep me in a safe distance

I'll destroy you in the best ways

But I'll destroy you ruthlessly

Don't blink your eyes

You waited your whole life

For something that would

feel as raving as this

Let me love you

Like you always wanted to 

Or as much as I could

as a feverish reverie

Let me be the first

the last and then nothing

as a maniac pixie dream

I'm a ghost, I am yours

I'm what you're entitled to

And I'd never let you get away

Just go and toss me some words

And I promise to believe you

And forge the perfect dreamscape

You say you know me

as your brand new lease on life

Whatever you think that means

And your permission is all I need

I'm the thought you play around

To forgive and forget yourself

While you can't find a way out

of your self made misery

Tell me I opened your eyes

as I cultivate stars in mine

I wouldn't want anything more

I never wanted to die for you

But you know I probably would

If that meant true love 

The Winds

This is where we started

And where we'll always be

Your soul was bought and sold

Mine is a dark shadow 

of what it used to be

Everybody knows there's nothing

sacred in the heart of thieves

And love is its own reward

It bends all truths

And justifies all means

We betrayed ourselves

And were left on our own

We gave in to wanting

And our will was done

We're the unlucky ones 

Bound to spend forever

out of heaven fighting 

against the winds

This is who we are

And what we cannot deny

You may try to run and hide

But I look at our sins

Right in the eye

You throw away your armor

It falls in a pile at my feet 

At sighting of my raw will

This is who we are

Who we are meant to be

For a moment 

we close our eyes

And hold hands for the

thousandth last time

To feel the winds hawling

and blowing on our face

As we fall into the temptation

Of despair and disgrace

To the bottom of it there's

no relief, there's no redemption

And there will never be

Crash and Burn

We saw the world ending

When we tore it down on our own

You had a revelation in a bad hallucination

And I was thirsty for blood for too long

Something new began

When we declared love and war

In a lawless land, hearts in our hands

In front of blind witnesses

We woke up to the light of day

To see dreams can stale very fast

And made a fool of ourselves

Now there's nothing left to betray

But we'll never confess

who did it first

Over and over 

No hearts left unbroken

No secrets left unspoken

And we can't turn back time

See me losing you losing me

As you're chasing me for

the darkest corners of my mind

We lost it all, we lost the fight

And took what little we deserved

It was all or nothing

It was crash and burn

We knew what we've done

And we'll never know if it was right

Standing on ground zero, no saint, no hero

Just broken, looking each other in the eye

Destroy something beautiful

Tell me to fuck off like it's your salvation

Bargain the truth as if it's yours to lose

And there's nothing you can do

I know we both lost something

And it's too far gone to get back

But I'm not the reason or a reflex

Of your bad luck and unhappiness

Or why you might never find 

what you're looking for

Over and over 

No hearts left unbroken

No secrets left unspoken

And we can't turn back time

See me losing you losing me

As you're chasing me for

the darkest corners of my mind

Lost in a maze, fading in a shade

Until it turns into a blur

It was all or nothing

It was crash and burn

Look over your shoulder

And see nothing is the same

Dishonor what you crave and

Place a white rose on the grave

Don't bother including me in

bad jokes or fishy stories

Don't mourn when there's

nothing left to mourn

it was crush and burn

Omertà

You saw me coming

As you always do

Clumsy conversations

One-sided negotiations

Waiting for me to say

everything you want me to

Blackmails and dirty talk

This world is too small

When we're waging war

Saying prayers without flinching

Acting and reacting on instinct

You've committed some sins 

but I'm an atheist

Feel my love hot as a knife

held really tight on your neck

Bringing us right back to life

Trapping us in little deaths

Hold your breath, close your eyes

I never said it, you never heard it

This is our omerta

I got you right where

I wanted you the most

Cursing heaven and hell

Me, us and yourself

For how we always turn out

When real traitor is hope

Anecdotes and sexy riddles

My love is a homing missile

No less ruthless or less lethal

This is the thief and the liar

Having fun playing with fire

Star crossed, crossed wires

And still entertwined

Let's get burned by the sun

Or drown in the open sea

Knowing it's not meant to be

Let's be unhappy together

Posting it'll last forever

Or 'til we go out for the weekend

Let's pray for our ghosts

And pray they'll stay dead

Right where they're left

Freedom

There's nothing I want most

Than to relearn time as my own

To see my faith reaching beyond

And unraveling in good will

I'm meant to relearn myself

In late thoughts of reinvention

Knowing them in full expansion

I crave a new heart to restart

My freedom is resolute

My freedom is absolute

Irreplaceable, non-negotiable

Insurmountable and unwavering

My freedom conquers all

My freedom breaks walls

It's not a dream I dare not dream

My freedom is everything

There's nothing I want most

Than the fullness of certainty

The mercy of understanding

That the best have been done

I'm meant to rediscover peace

And a brand new day to ascend

As I let go on all loose ends

Cause I don't have a choice

I didn't die when I thought I would

I could only go by the death I'd choose

My choice saved my life many times

I didn't clip my wings, didn't burn my ships

Made the best of what was made for me 

Never needed anyone to open my eyes

When I looked up to the sky

Spineless

Suffocate with your own hands

All of your death sworn love

Challenging my spirit and strength

So alluring you need to tear'em down

As if I'm something you can tame

With jesus christ and instagram

The devotion you learned to crave

As if it's yours by the taking

And the wish you'll never betray

Made you believe I'd be bound

to bow down and be a slave

In a land of lust and waste

You reach out to me

You love who I'll never be

And you'll never set me free

In your altar I'm faithless

In your heart I'm loveless

In your hands I'm spineless

Curse with your own words

The destiny you can't bend

Exorcizing my will and my hope

So amusing you need take'em down

As if I'm something you can love

through captions and ad posts

In your fantasy you thought

I would change my heart to yours

I'd give in to all what I'm not

So love could love me a bit more

Living and dying in it's misery

As if I'm grateful for it's mercy

Even the smallest sacrifice

It's too much to oblige

Yet you need part of my soul

Love could never redeem

There's nothing more to give

Nothing bought and sold

I'm Not Talking About You

The devil is in the details
In the breath you inhale

Your evasions of privacy

The devil is in your empty eyes

In your truth when you lie

In your false narrative

You forged the chase

You forged it with grace

And made it look good

Told the story once or twice

So natural, humble and nice

Wanting me to fake too 

Well, I could say

This is all a game

And it's all in vain

To expect the truth

I could say

You're the one to blame

And you can't complain

For being the one to lose

I could say all of these things

But I'm not talking about you

The devils is in the details

In caption letters on daily mail

When you try to save your neck

The devils is in your face

In the facade you display

As you wish you'd have me back

The mess you made

The false promise and heartbreak

Was it all you thought it would be?

The time you wasted

The hit and run, the sweet escape

Was it unfortunate or just destiny?

I could say that I already knew

But I'm not talking about you